the cab is dark
as the city lights
race against the glass
your parents still
can't get over what
we just told them
after an almost
two hour dinner
I catch your eyes
as you try to keep
them on the road
that knowing smirk
grows in your lips
and blooms in your voice
"When do you want
to set the date?"
they were abundant today
their obsidian wings
gliding overhead
making me pause and watch
these messengers in flight
I wondered if they had brought
tidings of victory or defeat
as they did to ancient battlefields
under Morrigan's reign
but my hope was for them
to continue their journey
well beyond my place in the tower
over the wide expanse and mountains
on desert winds arriving to you
and lay at your feet
all the polished thoughts
and jagged emotions within
I would give them these
to send to you
and in their eyes a glimpse of I
for you to keep until we meet
what do you see
when you look at the moon
do you see me looking
back at you
while the sun reflects
off its pale cold skin
do you see me there
dancing in your memories
I beckon to your upward glance
to that slight and momentary chance
that I might catch your gaze
in the mirror of the moon
what I wouldn't give for that time
when you trace the vine on my finger
and caress the ruby on my temple
you have done this many times before
in the mirror of the moon
rest now in your sheets and bed
as the stars caress your dream-locked head
and gentle is the kiss of night
upon your soulful eyes
slumber now my searching heart
in the mirror of the moon
standing at this shore
I am lost between the surge
and retreat of the endless waves
each surge injects me with
every passing thought
I've had of you
it pushes each future memory of you
into the depths of my soul
and drowns me in
your voice I've never heard
each retreating wave takes you away
further out to sea from me
pulling at the grasp I've made
for you for all these years
this shore is where
I can turn to take my path
on safe ordinary dirt in solitude
or I can follow the retreating waves
further out to sea
where they've taken you from me
and get drowned in your voice
I will hear some October morning
I fucked up and
I thought I lost you
I revealed all I could
reaching out with bare hand
wanting to leave my name
written in your latte froth
but blatant truth fell mute
and the best I could give
were clues leading to clues
it's the name of the game
we seem to be playing
I was ready to shake the glass
of this clasping claw arcade
though cheating never won
us anything in the past
and all I want is the future
where you can touch my hand
and we don't have to rely
on these voiceless conversations
we went beyond
when I laid my head
on your leg
you sat on the
end of the couch
as I stretched out
on the rest of it
I felt the denim of
your jeans against
the skin of my cheek
it felt like home
a place where I
could quietly drift
off into blissful sleep
but something else
unexpectedly happened and
someone else was convinced
that what you and I have
is beyond my head
resting on your denim jeans
we see each other through the shadows
that space scatters between us
and our visions have pierced the smoke
that time billows into our days
each time you journey through the dark
I reach for your flesh to hold
every time I whisper your sweet name
you long for my breath on your ear
the want bleeds into the routine
stealing our thoughts from the now
a gravity that wages war on our lives
each other becoming our drug of choice
as we revel in the could be conversations
and seek out the eventual rendezvous
our souls are content in this communion
of distant voices familiar as self
in a stack of journals
have you found me
to pull me close
and give me life
the ink my blood
the paper my flesh
as you flip the pages
and trace the words
with your ravenous eyes
I am laid out before you
wishing you to savor
each morsel you have written
kiss the paper with your ink
soak it in your desires
so I may swim in your voice
after the paper tears
and is drenched in your tears
lay it out to dry
in the Vegas desert sun
and lick the salty saline silk
from the pages of my soul
you rouse me at dawn
to reassure me yesterday
wasn't a dream
your touch seeps deep
within my soul
and lures me to your eyes
you tell me something
your lips have said before
but my ears receive your voice
in virginal bliss and warmth
though our souls have done
all of this many times
our bodies haven't and quiver
under the weight of the experience
you reluctantly rise
and ask me how I like my coffee
I cease the reply to make you pause
to hold you in your stance and gaze
to keep you in this moment
just a little longer
you have seen it all
in my skin
and I have doubted
that any of this was true
but do I look into a mirror
when I search for you
your words
you keep them safe
and hidden from view
they have given you
your depths
through the pain and ridicule
but I will savor each syllable
caressing each page
you have filled with
your breath
do we rewrite the past
as we search for the future
have we given each other
each other's scars
each burnished spot glimmers
and guides our way
earning the jealousy of the stars
in waking
I will hold on to you
no matter
where we might have left off
we'll return
to that moment of our desire
as we pass
through this hall of veils
each silken
vision fading from our view
dissolving into
the breath you leave on my neck
when touch
ignites the torch between our flesh
our dreams
cast the light before our feet
both running
down this hall of tangled veils
until in waking...
when we have wakened...
we find our heart within our chests
you don't need to
give me your heart
we already share one
don't give me the world
or take a bullet for me
just look for my hand
it's waiting for yours
remember we're not two
strangers on the sidewalk
we've done this all before
and will do again, perhaps
but for now look for my hand
that longs for your touch
you will read my past
written across my skin
the same words engraved
on the dreams you wear as rings
when you find my hand
patiently waiting next to yours
grasp it and scream those same
words engraved on your dreams
pull me close and hold me tight
I will surrender my feathers
I will not take flight
Dare I write this into
existence
when you take my hand
in yours
when I take your eyes
into mine
and the heat between us is
immediate
Dare I want to bend
as the endless wait
continues
through snowy frozen
that melt into our words
unspoken
Dare I speak your name
aloud
so my lips feel your
so my tongue tastes your
so this silent madness
makes sense
