Talaria steps

you're of my ruling planet

so does that mean you

were to rule my path

directing each step so

I may have no say

for you to slip the lead

around my neck and

take me where you may

and it seems perhaps

that is exactly what you did

almost as if you stole me

away from my own heart

and pointed me into the cold

but in many ways I was willing

that I must have agreed

to your guidance at some point

was it you that took my hand

that night we never kissed

jumping off of the page

I flipped to before it all

you hitchhiked for as long

as I allowed it all, though

I feel you may come and go

at times, now and then... still

Feast my eyes

I arrive at the restaurant

my heart overrides my nerves

as my mind is perplexed

about how calm I am

strange to be a party of one

as I've never gone out

to eat by myself, alone

that'll soon be remedied

the hostess leads me

into the dining room

and seats me with a menu

this list of food and drinks

will serve as my companion

but merely for the moment

for even as I sit down I feel

a magnetic force knocking

at my accelerating pulse

I resist for as long as I can

but then give in to the impulse

I glance up to find the most

intense gaze fixated on me

at that moment everything 

else fades from reality

as the ravenous connection

pulls at the very souls

of the two engaged in this

Countdown

just one thousand

three hundred sixty seven

of those twenty-four hours

rinse and repeat

the waking and sleep

for the next one hundred

and ninety five weeks

but that is the question

what to do with all the

forty four moons

passing between us

so many to juggle

on the path to you

some are just to wade through

while others will be

down right shit

but in the thirty two

thousand seven hundred

and eighty eight hours

we will live our lives

until it becomes our life

and I wish you the best one

for the next three years

eight months and 

twenty eight days

 

Occupation

he looks down upon

the passing seasons

from his position 

in the tower five up

his chamber is built

in the nervous system

where brains both

come and leave

the tower five up

is situated in a large

expanse of verdant green

and he looks up to

watch the giant dragonflies

zoom by holding lives

in their hands

the five up in the tower

is not the only five up

he holds dear to him

five up from his own day

he has climbed

on the ladder of moons

to find the other

he has called to 

and has heard called

from the tower five up

to raptor wings and beyond

Love thyself

you ask me

to love myself

through you

to use you as

a mirror

and undress

for me to look

at the flowing

curves running

up and down my

torso and legs

to see the varied

hues of pigment

that has come from

generations of lovers

entwining their genes

to give me this flesh

you ask me to look

at the constellations

scattered across my flesh

stars that help you

navigate to my heart

you ask me to look

at the scars that glimmer

reflecting those past

lessons learned hard

in this you light a candle

to help guide me

across the bridge

from my heart to my self

Libra

your scales 

balance me

I thought your

stars were mine

but gave them back

to you when I 

realized my mistake

you may take mine

when twins ride bulls

but I want it known

I give them to you

with all the joy

found in the heavens

though you offer me

the world and anything

the thing I want the most

is you as my world

so I'll tip your scales

just for the time being

so as with sails 

to point you Starboard

and to home with me

 

 

Standing by

do we feel as statues

these stands of stone

carved by an outside force

draped in time and patience

having been chipped away

through the drifting years

to reveal the within

what we may have hid

what we may have held

to keep ourselves whole

in lives that were shattered

do we feel as statues

with unblinking eyes

upon the swirling spheres

waiting for alignment

not of any stars or heavenly bodies

but of our own bodies and souls

of our own heart and spirit

to claim the reason for our births

and realize the cost of our deaths

Will be

"all the could bes

that torment you at night

are not near as strong

as the will be"

you whisper this

to me so I can sleep

but it's my dreams

or the lack of them

that cause the insomnia

I rest in the thought of you

yet the thought of you

stirs me from sleep

the fear that if I fall

asleep with you

will I wake up 

without you...

and you whisper again

 

In restlessness

amorous waves lapped

our tangled bodies

while sheets twisted

in the wind of our desire

our serpentine limbs

danced in an emerald haze

and we were lost to

the late night hours

our lips slowly chanted

the song emanating from

our heaving chests

eternity could have

passed us by unaware

as your hand brushed

my cheek and trickled

down my neck

your arm cradled

my chest from behind

and we fell asleep

with your breath

whispering in my ear

Venus rules

in tourmaline fields

I search for you

with aid of raven calls

my voice is carried

to your heart

down spiral stairs

my feet carry me deep

into a forgotten chamber

the walls pulsate with

your drum and ebb and

flow with the rhythm 

of your holy breath

in these depths and

candlelight views

I discover you reading

you look up suddenly

I catch your glance

and throw it back to you

everything falls silent

and still and in this

the moment Venus has

blessed our tether

you take my hand in yours

and kiss my temple

 

Sunday nights in January

what if we decide

to go a day early

or that a day early

isn't early enough

from a coincidental

meeting at the curb

to an intentional

sought out contact

with table and chairs

from morning light

to best lit faces in

dim bulbs and candles

what if we decide

to throw it all away

every version we've

indulged ourselves in

and just say fuck it

toss a coin and let it

land on come what may

because no matter if

it's nearing Halloween

or falling on some other

significant date and time

all the signs we've known

all of them we've cherished

are ornaments to this

what's said between us

just remnants of our hope

that we crave on cold

Sunday nights in January

 

The last leg

some three

and three

quarters 

from now

dangling meat

before our eyes

the chaos

that spills

from the

oracle's lips

feel so

illiterate trying

to read these

tea leaves

but with a

good book

and tin 

of Dansk

some three

and three 

quarters 

from now

will be now

in no time

Overlaps

the whispers to

you at midnight

the moments you

steal from him

the glances I 

steal from you

the fibs I tell so

I can meet you

again and again

the tug of war

you both play

with my soul

the choice I made

the path we took

the body we share

just for the moment

the fate I take back

in Jupiter's glare

the flight I'll make

the dreams you'll have

some mid October

 

On the look out

I watch for you

searching for me

you finally see me

looking for you

but I try not to look

at you watching me

your gaze is too heavy

and I cannot look away

so I meet your eyes

as you draw closer without blinking

I look down at the chair next to me

you take a seat and say,

"You look like you are looking for someone." 

I reply, "I was."

Gifting tune

green stars that

shine in your 

reflection

red moons that

roll in my

direction

these rings that

swirl around

our fingers

this song that

stays around

and lingers

 

Who are you waiting for

I know him

without ever 

meeting him

I know him 

without any

memories of him

it's like his

essence is

embedded within

my own

like whispers

being made

between our

molecules

I have never

seen him,

physically

yet I have seen

every part

of him

We may have to be distant right now

found a blank

thinking of you

card today

the emptiness of it

was deafening

wanted to fill

it up with you

with thoughts of you

with want of you

with all the words

I have yet to

say to you

and after the space

is filled to capacity

I would offer it

to the giants glowing

in the night sky

for them to take the now

and bring about 

what will be

 

Tempering

the fire offers its warmth

and light in this cold night

though it struggles to find

the strength to ignite with

cold and damp fuel to feed

smooth smoke wafts up

over the fence into the drive

it sinks slowly into the glow

of the side door's lantern

the heated energy drifting

down the shadowy street

as Orion reclines in the east

Venus peers through the trees

incense from the spruce twigs

settles on the dormant grass

and wonder pauses for now

to breathe in the moment

under the weight of this fate

Beating drums

scramble to write down

dates to try to make sense

out of the beating drums

when they didn't beat

so well at night's beginning

when the dance was

exhausting when the

drummers needed to

remember the electro

magnetic frequency

of this spinning world

but counted out the

second of the fourth

of the two thousand 

and twenty second

to the eve of Christmas

that same turn

to the second of the fifth

of the two thousand

and twenty fifth

had we finally had enough

just enough to make

all your friends speechless

when you introduce me

yeah, let's dance 

to our own drum

 

Gems

I dreamt of

dreaming of you

just knowing

that you had

been in my dreams

made my heart

skip a beat

it was as though

we had taken 

the next step

that you were in

a place other than

our waking dreams

you had walked

though the wall

of my psyche

into a place where

I could hold you safe

could hold you close

this dream of

dreaming of you

is an emerald for me

and a ruby for you

Closest

this rising smoke

an incantation 

under the alignment

of closeness

in this us being

closest to the sun

and the moon

being closest to us

I invoke gravity

to pull us closest

in this a shower

of heavenly bodies

soaring to their fates

I invoke Luvehi

to pull us closest

rising incense calls

through the night

to pull us closest

and hold us tight

 

Excessus

your arms slide

underneath mine

from behind

your breath is

heavy on my neck

my heart ticks

with the beat

of prey before

the predator

the beat slowly

melts into your

tidal motion

two beings ebbing

and flowing together

as my neck

arches backwards

and your lips

glide down it

to pool on my

eager shoulder

I surrender

to your will

as you hold me

within your chest

we are lost in 

this moment

in each other

2029

how long to savor

that moment

how long to stay

in that moment

the moment we 

always return to

a soft word spoken

a glance taken

finger glides across

back of hand

reply and nod

eyes in awe

stuttering lips

disbelief melts

into recognition

and then...

how long to keep

that moment within

how long to wait

for that moment

the moment we

always long for